Downsizing

I'm into my 7th week on Ideal Protein now. I haven't been blogging as much...I think that might be because I've been enjoying life more and haven't found time to sit down. That and besides my girth, my work has been downsizing and I've been under stress about all of that. And, I've taken on another part time thing which is eating my time.

I have been doing well. I have more than 25 pounds off since September. I feel good, I'm done a size. I have more energy, I sleep better. I am happier.

It is worth every single penny.

This program isn't cheap. It is more than I can afford, but I have my mom and sister throwing in to help. But, I would get a second job to keep it going because it is the first thing that ever worked for me and it is just so easy to manage long term. 

Here are five observations I have after 7 weeks and more than $1000 in Ideal Protein food sampling.

Tips for Success

1. It is essential that you don't drink. This has been hard, it is party season. No booze, so hypoglycaemia, no extra strain on liver and kidneys, no impulse eating, no taxis (save $) and sure, the parties aren't so fun. But, clothes shopping remains a better high when I see the numbers go down. 

2. No cheating. I have the occasional splurge. I went for supper and had steak and lobster with a side salad. The 5 oz steak had bacon wrapped around it. I don't fuss when the extra is a little more fat or protein but I have to stay focused to ensure it doesn't creep up and add up. So far, I've been lucky.

3. One restricted a day max, but you don't have to have one every day. Those net carbs add up. 

4. What we buy in grocery stores is not turnip, it is rutabaga. Real turnip is small, cute and white. Rutabaga isn't allowed. It can add a lot of excess carbs. 

5. Tracking matters. 

6. The daily videos help with motivation and the support of friends and family is essential.

7. Water gets harder to drink but it has to stay part of the routine. It is essential to feeling full and maintaining hydration and weight loss. 

Ideal Protein Food Favourites

I have tried many of the foods and I will give them a star rating based on how I like them out of five. I really like most of the food. They do well with replacing the things you want and can come through in a punch when you need a fix of something that feels like a carb. 

Shakes

Vanilla *****

Chocolate*****

Cappuccino*****

Soups

Chicken a La King ****

Tomato Basil **

Mushroom ****

Chicken (not noodle) ***

Chili **** (r)

Pasta

Tomato Basil Rotini ***

Chicken Patties *****

Pudding

Vanilla *****

Banana*****

Chocolate***

Crisps

Dill Pickle Zippers ***** (r)

Salt and Vinegar Soy Crisps *****

Garlic Chive Soy Crisps ****

White Cheddar Puffs ***** (r)

Bars

Chocolate Caramel ***** (r)

Peanut Butter *****

Collagen

Cherry Jello *****

Complete Meals

Chicken Dijonnaise *****

ALCOHOL AND IDEAL PROTEIN

At this posting, I'm down 15 pounds since starting Ideal Protein. Down 18 since the end of summer. And, it feels good. Really good. I've never lost 18 pounds in one go before. This is huge for me. It would take a year on Weight Watchers to even come close to losing 15 pounds and I'd quit frustrated after about 2 months of up .6 and down .4's.

As I get more used to the program, I seem to be blogging less. Of course, not ceasing completely...just taking thoughts as they come in.

I watched a really interesting video today which really capped off my last week or so of life. It was a video from the program about why alcohol is not allowed. I have known some people who seem to drink on the program, and I hear that they get sick and have a bad hangover, but I am not willing to take the chance myself. First, it's a dedication thing. I want to stay on the diet as much as I possibly can to produce the most success. A lifestyle change this expensive should involve changing some "go - to" patterns, like having a drink or 10 at every party I go to.

I have managed to go to a lot of parties on this protocol. I have several different strategies I put into play to make myself enjoy it, and to not be tempted by the food and drinks.

1. Always plan the whole day around the party. I know in advance that I'm going to a party. I check with the host to see what is on the menu and what will be involved. Most of the parties I go to are hippie pot lucks. And, most of the people I know have some sort of food allergy or another to accommodate. So, this usually works in my favour. I have mostly found that not even thinking that I'll eat anything provided is better than thinking I'll try something and that I'll be able to eat something and not come prepared. On Sunday, this was the case, I brought a veggie tray and mostly ate a couple of meatballs and raw veggies. I did nibble one small piece of pakora to sample the cook's talent and had a couple slices of cured meat. All counted as my 8 oz protein and veggies though. 
2. Bring something I like to drink. My treat for myself is a carbonated water with lemon on ice. I always pour it in a glass and I drink 1 Litre bottle at a party. I refill my glass often and people often don't offer me a drink because I have something that looks like one. I do the same in restaurants and outside of this I typically drink water. So, it's pretty refreshing and a nice treat. I have not seen this impact my weight loss at all but I have heard different thoughts on carbonated waters. 
3. Have a plan, Have food. Sometimes I go to a party where the junk and carby food is lined up like a trough! I bring my own snacks, a bag of Ideal Protein Soy Crisps, An Ideal Protein Chocolate Bar, and a bag of cut veggies. Last time, I snacked on my chips and veggies and switched my lunch to the main meal so my Ideal Protein Crisps and veggies was my dinner. Then, I still had room for a bar as the party progressed. 
4. Go Later. Last evening I was invited to another birthday pot luck. I knew the food would be delicious and tempting and lots of strangers all engaged in the eating process. I decided to forfeit the pot luck and go later. I arrived as everyone was finished eating (after eating at home) and enjoyed sitting around and having a chat for the rest of the evening. I still had to decline about 10 offers for dessert but I was able to do so just fine. 

Every weekend there is a new thing going on. This weekend, I got through three. I cheated a little with a few pieces of cured meat and two or three small bits of 3 year old manchego cheese. But, I felt in control and invested in the diet plan. And, ready for anything. I did count the cured meats off of my total ounces but I'm not quite sure where they stand.

But, why no alcohol? 

The calories in alcohol are "empty calories". They provide no nutritional value whatsoever and no cell in the body can use ethyl alcohol as a fuel source. Moreover, alcohol is a toxin which the liver must transform into non-toxic substances. During the weight loss phases of the diet, the liver is "busy" transforming fatty acids into ketonic bodies (ketogenesis) and transforming certain amino acids to glucose as well as the glycerol fractions of triglycerides (ie. gluconeogenesis.) When you drink alcohol, getting rid of this toxin becomes your liver's #1 job and fat burning is compromised...slowing down weight loss and possibly even triggering hypoglycemia (to an extent where you may even pass out). 

In the end, it is just not worth it to me. This diet protocol works because it causes great changes in the body. Changes on a cellular level. The doctors who created the protocol intend for you to not cheat. The foods allowed were chosen thoughtfully for the maximum success and minimum health risks. Ketoacidosis is not to be taken lightly or something for anyone to play with. 

And, that's why I won't drink on the protocol. 

What about other cheats? 

I have been struggling with eating the Ideal Protein Crispy Cereal and the Ideal Protein Restricted flake syle cereal. Adding the water to the powder to create "not milk" creates a by product that I find kind of slimy. I committed to choking these two boxes back until they are done as they cost so damn much. I have heard that almond milk isn't allowed. I did see on this Ideal Protein clinic site that a half cup is okay. I tried 1/2 cup of unsweetened almond milk in my cereal and it was delicious. I was actually sad to finish the last two packs. Now, I'm working through the restricted ones. I posted this to a discussion group and sort of got a bit of flack for it. I do believe, however, that I know what I'm doing and that the person who had the criticism seems to cheat every other week with much bigger things than a 1 carbohydrate, 1 protein and 20 calorie 100ml of milk. I don't think I'll buy the cereal again, but I will use the almond milk as my crutch to get through the last box unless someone tells me a really good reason why not to.

3.5 WEEKS

I almost feel like there's not much to write, but the truth of the matter is that there's always something. The work is sometimes digging in to pull it out.

I have been hungry again lately. Almost like I'm out of ketosis. I've also been not journaling and when I opened the page today, I realize that I fell behind since Friday. Trying to remember what you ate since Friday is very difficult. So, I filled it in as best I could (good thing there's a lot of structure and I've committed to eating the Ideal Protein rice and flaked cereal until it is gone--only 8 packs to go) and committed to doing better going forward.

I think my PMS and hormones are messing with me. I have not had a cycle since September. I have the occasional phantom cramp and appetite fluctuations and bloating. I have been drinking craploads of water and when I go out, I have sparkling water instead of alcohol. I haven't cheated in the typical way, but occasionally the places I am don't have things that are on the diet. For example, I had a Caesar salad at a restaurant last night where the dressing and grated Romano wasn't on the plan. I chose this knowing that I would be choosing fat in lieu of carbs which is less likely to kick me off ketosis. It's not the worst cheat but I am worried about the slide that comes with the little slips here and there. I feel good knowing that I didn't even have a sip of wine and drank 2 litres of sparkling water through the concert. I know it could be worse.

Sometimes I think I am just in too much of a rush to get the weight off and that I am comparing myself to other people's success or weight loss. I have done 11 lbs in 3 weeks. If this stayed consistent, I'd be over the moon.

Already, 3.5 weeks in I need to remind myself to do the following more. If I don't do this, I really wont have any idea if my weight loss (or lack of) is my fault or if the program is really working:

• measure veggies and weigh meat - guess work can cost expensive pounds
• journal everything to track hunger patterns
• get out for a nice walk lunch time 

The weather has been horrible and cold. I've been fighting something. I didn't have the right supplies. All of these are valid excuses but they aren't enough reason to not do this right. 

And, then I need to give myself a break. 

I have just received my order from Low Carb Grocery with lots of goodies like gum, shirataki noodles, 0-0-0 sauces and dressings in packages I can take in my purse. This alleviates the salad issue at restaurants. 

Other people's shit

I was on Facebook today (the best place to go if you are feeling shitty and down about yourself, NOT) and noticed that a friend of mine lost 35lbs this summer. This friend has lots of money, two beautiful kids, a cottage and all kinds of fun toys. She can pay someone to work out for her, or to cook and prep her meals (I don't think she does though). I have another friend who just lost 20 pounds by "stopped eating a big bag of chips every night" while eating at midscale and fine dining at least four days a week.  Of course weight loss comes easy to them! Some people just seem to struggle less in life and that's good, in reality I'm happy for them and would prefer it this way much more than to see them struggle. But, god, I wish I'd get a break sometimes. I mean, I can't do much more here! 

However, it got me to thinking about the past two times I spent time with that one friend and her family. I have had a good connection with her kids. They are very sweet and well behaved. Last Christmas, I was looking after them while the parents were out and when I tucked the older girl into bed and bent over to give her a goodnight kiss on the forehead, she told me I was too fat to bend over. I was dumbstruck. I corrected her that it wasn't nice to say people are fat and that I was quite capable of bending, thank you. I laughed it off as "out of the mouths of babes" but the judgement and awareness bothered me. It bothered me that she knew what fat was and that there could be such a thing as too much of it. She judged me for being overweight. At 8 years old! Then, this past summer, she said she was reluctant to go on the tube behind the jet ski with me because I was too heavy and might sink it (I did wonder about the weight rating of the tow-able but as it is designed for four adults, I decided it would be safe for me and two half-pint kids).

The point of all of this is my curiosity about where this 8 year old obtains these judgements? There is no doubt that she loves me and has no idea how jarring and hurtful those comments could be. There is also no doubt that she speaks similarly to other kids at school who have a weight issue. But, kids don't learn these things on their own. I wonder through her mother's dieting has she learned that fat is something to be despised and that food is to be feared. I really worry about that. 

My shit

I worry about how kids learn and develop these judgements that skinny equals good and fat equals bad. I wonder where anyone develops the notion that overweight people are less than, to be "othered" and that it is obviously their fault for being in that condition. 

While I sit and wonder this, I worry that my particular issues may never disappear and that this diet will be like the long string of others that just don't work. And, that is very scary. 

Ultimately I want to love myself for what's on the inside. And, I want to rid myself of the ideas I have about weight that come from a very complex cycle of development. It was constructed by me and by those I interacted with from an early age. It's also reinforced by my declining popularity as I gain size. I used to be surrounded with shallow people who loved to spend time in my company and fill my house. I would hazard to guess that many of these people are embarrassed to be seen with me as I've creeped higher and higher on the scale. And, perhaps it is not them but my internalization of self criticism and loathing that makes it all just a self-fulfilling prophecy. Every time I am not invited to a party, snubbed by someone I used to know, looked over for a career opportunity/advancement, I blame it on the weight. It doesn't make it true. It's that whole separation between correlation and causation. It could be that I've become so insecure that I don't put off the warmth that drew others in, the confidence that begets confidence in me. There's so much to do here beyond losing weight. 

Regardless, there's a lot of negativity in there. I don't think losing weight is the solution. It alleviates the symptoms but really its a problem that's a lot bigger than me. 

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

It's Friday again! Time to go weigh in soon.

I've had my typical couple of days anxiety since Wednesday. Not feeling like I'm down much. Not feeling like I'm doing enough. It's almost like this diet can be too good to be true sometimes.

I did have a few cheats that I will talk to my coach about. The first was seriously not my fault. I went out for dinner and planned ahead, ordered my 8 oz striploin with careful instructions: no butter, no sauce, no anything. And, asked to switch the side from fries to broccolini and steamed kale with no butter, no nothing. They accommodated. Their definition of broccolini was not mine: it looked more like long green beans to me. It's okay though, because the only other occasional vegetable I had this week was a few slices of tomato on my take out salad. I'm sure these aren't game changers. My dinner was delicious. I drank a litre of sparkling water with my dinner. I didn't miss the beer and it was nice to be able to get out for a meal that I didn't cook. The food tasted better than I've ever had out. It might be my refined palate! I had a few pieces of charceuterie to start(lomo, jamon) which I classified as lean meat. It was a stretch but it hit the spot. If that's as far as I take the cheating, I think I'm okay.

Then, today, I failed to pack appropriate veggies (due to inadequate grocery shopping) and I went to the salad stand at work. Of their many options, I could only have spinach, chicken, celery and cabbage and they had no dressing and weren't willing to do the olive oil and vinegar. So, I had the greek feta dressing which was closes to. I had such a little amount that I'm sure it is okay. It just annoys me that I am not prepared. I'm going to order some to go dressings from Low Carb Canada. A variety pack is good and they don't need to be refrigerated until opened. This would help me in many situations. At the restaurant last night, I couldn't even order a salad between the toppings and the dressings.

The daily taunts of cupcakes, fruits, and other sundry items beckon
while I sit to have my soup in our work kitchen! NO thanks.

I'm surrounded by chocolate bars, treats, chips, cheesies...so much junk food. It's been this way all week. I have not even been tempted at all. Today's video talked about glucose in the brain and willpower. That must be it...my brain is satisfied so I am strong. The sugar dips and highs definitely drive cravings. And, the structure helps me know that I just can't have something. Sometimes, I think it's better to not even try it. To not know what I'm missing.

Walking the talk: Halloween treats

I refuse to give out candy. I can't stand the over consumption and that now that parents have become more astute (and kids have become more allergic) they have things like the Switch Witch. So, most of the candy gets donated to food banks. I can't list all of the Population Health reasons why giving candy to the people who are most at need for nutrition is bad. I shouldn't have to. 

My weight issues are tangled up with insulin and metabolic disorders. This is no doubt attributed to my diet as a child. The candy bars, the chips, the access to sugary drinks. It was given as a show of love and never intended to be harmful--I'm not accusing or blaming anyone for anything here. All children of the 80's ate that way--it's what we were advertised to like, what we thought tasted good. The cereal commercials and Saturday morning cartoons, the prizes in the most sugary cereal, the prizes in packaged chips. And, it was cheaper. Which means that someone with two children on a limited income could afford to feed us sugary drinks in between meals because it costed next to nothing. And, with names like Fruite, Tang or Sunny Delight, these delicious sugared syrups had the appearance of thirst quenching vitamin fruit drinks. Combine that with my DNA and reduced activity levels, and it was a loaded gun for obesity. It set the course, the genetic programming, for weight for my whole life. 

I do not believe that children need candy for obesity and dental health reasons, which then turn into other chronic conditions that may even lead to poor self esteem and depression. 

I do hand out the occasional chocolate (last year I ran out of my 75 Halloween tattoos quickly and ran to get something at the corner store). This year, my treat bowl is filled with pencils, games, notebooks, pens, stretchy rats, bouncy balls, vampire teeth, etc.

I hope the kids feel good about it, but if not at least I will. 

p.s. Wearing a full beard with ketosis breath is surely an adventure. Don't forget the listerine strips! 

IDEAL PROTEIN MILESTONE: MY BIRTHDAY

First, an update. On Friday, I was down another 4 pounds. If you want a motivator, that would be it for me. I feel so great, nothing can seem to pull me off this lifestyle.

I had my weigh in on Friday, then headed to New Brunswick to visit a friend for the night Saturday. I spent the weekend there, in the house known for it's junk food, and didn't go one bite over my plan. I brought a chicken with me and ensured that it was added to the chicken dinner allowing me my 8 oz serving. I had turnip as a side. No big deal at all.

Food on the go

I drank my shakes for breakfast and I have to say, I'm a fan of vanilla. I was occasionally substituting chocolate for Premier Protein shakes from costco as they had similar macros at a fraction of the price. But, the Ideal Protein Vanilla shake is so good, I am hooked. On Sunday, I treated myself to a IP Vanilla Frappuchino. I took my shake with me on the morning coffee run and ordered 2 shots of espresso on ice in a 20oz cup from second cup, with a straw. I poured my shake in and I'm telling you--if Starbucks got a hold of this one, they'd be selling it for $10 a pop. So good! You really can indulge!

I also made sure to drink lots of water when driving and to pack foods that I could cook and enjoy along with my friends. I think my food was better! I love the chicken pattys for lunch.

I make sure to treat myself by having the occasional splenda sweetened sparkling water.

I didn't even miss the beer or feel left out when I had a cold drink of my own on ice. And, when it was movie time, I cracked open a bag of IP salt and vinegar crisps. Like I said, I think my food was better!

PRO TIP

If you can swing it, it's good to get a variety of Ideal Protein foods up front and slowly add to them. The variety will keep you from getting bored. 

My Stash

The birthday

I haven't made much fuss about the diet at work or with friends. It's just something I'm doing and I make mention when I need to or if I have to explain things (like eating astronaut food in the work lunchroom after being a staunch advocate of unprocessed food). I was very flattered that yesterday, instead of the usual cake, my work just gave me a card with some coffee money taped to it. I would have been fine if they had cake but it was sweet to feel so supported. I really work with a great group of people. I did treat myself to a Ideal Protein Chicken Dijonnaise for lunch and it was really delicious.

Birthday Dinner

My intention was to make supper (or have P make supper) at home. But, when I got home I was so tired and hungry and I decided to go out or order out. P worked late, so I decided to order for when she arrived. I checked a few places and finally settled on a local pizzaria where I ordered us spiced baked shredded chicken breast over a garden salad with dressing on the side. There were some tomatoes and the chicken was under the ozs required, so I supplemented with a few ozs of baked pork later in the night. The dressing was olive oil, garlic, salt, lemon juice and pepper. All good! It was nice to see that I could still enjoy a simple convenience sometimes!

I was content from the food and had a bar as a mid day snack so that was all I needed for the evening. No thoughts of cake. I drank hot tea all night because I was feeling a bit of a scratchy throat. A few friends dropped by with champagne and beer. I drank tea and they had beer. Same as usual except I drove them home this time instead of P, who never is much of a drinker.

I did mentally prepare for my birthday. I packed my weight scales and measuring cups and water for my trip. I bought the chicken dijjonaise for any occasion where I wanted something "special."

I have also made a deal that the bars, while restricted, are for days when I do exercise for an hour or when I am really craving something sweet. They don't come out of the box into just any old day.

Then I got sick

This morning, I woke up with a nasty headache and sore throat. I had a liquid breakfast and some chicken pattys for lunch. It's hard to swallow but those damn chicken pattys are so good, I have them whenever I am home or near a fry pan for lunch. I'll spend the day drinking hot tea and it will be a struggle to get my water in, but I will. 

THE MENTAL JOURNEY

I came here all fired up for a post and then decided to share some resources and stumbled onto something that--as a health professional, public relations professional, and as an IP client--made me furious. Now, I want to go there and tear her a new a-hole and counter everything her blog says about why this diet is not ideal. But, no. I will keep this about me and not give ignorance one more bit of airtime. I did not need to read this ignorant doubt today.

That's been kind of a theme the last two days anyhow, giving ignorance airtime. The way that people react to awful things is less than okay. The events in Ottawa have set our Country on some divisive witch hunt and warpath, while the other half mourns peace and our soldiers and the possibility that our naive feeling of safety may have just been that--naive.

I woke up this morning feeling kind of rough. I had my flu shot yesterday and I think it tired me out. This is normal because your body does raise your antigens to fight off the injected flu. That's how you develop immunity. Anyway, I was feeling down and questioning...is this just water weight? Will I lose tomorrow? What if it doesn't work.

I think it comes from too many efforts and so much blame. Blame from myself. Blame from others. Blame from doctors.

My dieting OCD

I worry right down to the minutae, the last gram of measurement. I stress because yesterday we had soup. Piedad made it and I know she didn't weigh the chicken or properly measure the veggies. I know that I can eyeball my cucumber when they are in a 2 cup container. But, I feel like I need to be more scientific. Like somehow, I failed to calculate the air that comes between each slice or that I need to cut it up into fine bits for accuracy (but grosser eating). Or, with cabbage, how do I account for the fact that shredded cabbage takes up less room than chunked. This gives me stress. I worry that if I don't measure this just so, and I don't always know for sure, that I will not lose. And, I so desperately want to lose--I want 100 lbs yesterday. What if I had too much sodium and am retaining water? Where is my period anyhow--could that make me keep weight that I should be shedding? SO MUCH ANXIETY! I don't have to be perfect everyday. I am sure that I have a tiny amount of wiggle room for perfection but I'm so used to being so broken that no other diet worked with or without a bit of wiggle room.

It's all highs and lows. Most of the time, though, I feel very high and happy and excited.

I have tried so many things and have failed. Some of that was on me and my consistency, sure. But, consistently I've tried things and started out so strong and then hit a 10 lb wall and not went any further. This time, I will feel better once I hit the 20 lb mark. Hopefully that won't take too long. That will be more than I have ever done before, in the past 13 years since I gained this weight in the first place. I'm already seeing small wins...the pants I bought before I started the diet now fit and then I had trouble getting them fastened. Small wins.

Then Monday is my birthday and I have to figure out how to feel like I celebrated it without the typical booze, food and cake. No issue. I'm going hiking.

And, I'm already worrying about my Christmas vacation. We are heading to Spain for 3 weeks and it is my first time there. I feel like I will want to eat and drink my way through the place. But, I have lots of time to make a game plan. It will be okay.

Tomorrow is a new day and I'm off to get weighed. I hope the results are something that can motivate me for another round of obsessiveness and self doubt. I've been a good girl, so I really hope it shows.

On the plus side

We have eaten through every bit of vegetable in our fridge in a systematic way. We have had literally zero waste. 

So, I'm off to get groceries again. 

FAT BURNING MACHINE

I've been into the diet now just a bit over a week. There are two things I notice:

1. I have so much more energy
2. I am in such a better mood

I am definitely someone who has hormone issues. Being PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome), insulin resistant and not having regular cycles would definitely contribute to this. In fact, my cycle is so out of sync that I haven't had one since the end of August. I am okay with that but I know that when it comes, it will be debilitating again. 

I have tried the IUD but expel it. I don't like my doctor either, because he refuses to investigate what is going on with why I expel it. It's not a fun experience to continue the insertion, discomfort for a month, and then expelling of the thing so I gave up. I'm hoping weight loss will fix this thing better than more hormones. The whole situation is a catch 22 of : you are fat because you have broken insulin and hormone stuff and the only way to fix it is to lose weight. 

I almost shared a link here to an article about fat that talked about genetics, insulin and all of the theory that supports the Ideal Protein program. But, like all the other things that infuriate me, it ended with this paragraph.

The formula for obesity is simple: When the number of calories you eat exceeds your daily energy requirement, the excess is stored as fat. To eliminate unwanted weight, use exercise and portion control to burn more calories than you eat. 

I call BULLSHIT! If it was so simple, and it were just thermodynamics (cals in, minus cals out) we would not require these diets that actually target ketosis. The article contradicted it's own philosophy. It frustrates the hell out of me.  It is just simpler to blame the bad fat people for having poor portion control than to actually look at the broken systems in the body that hold fat and refuse to burn it. It refuses to look at society and what we eat and what is cheapest to buy. It refuses to address the individuals who have cut and cut and cut to live in eternal starvation and never lose a pound.

It is irresponsible, stupid and gross. The medical community needs to change their learning.

This diet works because it is not about calories in and out. There's an element, of course, but there is so much more going on here. 

Hormone release

Today our video was about hormone and toxin release. When you are obese (or 55% fat as I like to say), your body stores toxins and additional hormones in fat. It's like a special reservoir. These fat cells are kind of dynamic really, when you think of their ability to multi-task. And, let's not forget-we need some fat in our system as it plays an important role. 

When you lose fat, toxins and hormones are released. Depending on your fat, or your body, there maybe effects that coincide with that. 

If you shed/release male hormones, androgens, you may experience increased acne (check, had that issue anyway) or hair growth/loss. Short term pains for long term gains, I say.

If you shed/release female hormones, you might see delayed menopause (if you were just about to start) meaning that if you had stopped your menstrual cycle, it may start again. You may also experience PMS or other hormonal symptoms. 

Another very important fact, is that during the diet, due to the potential increase in estrogen, your birth control pill may not be as effective. Yes. That's right, you can get knocked up even when taking the pill. So, with that in mind, anyone who sleeping with a member of the opposite sex and is undergoing a major weight loss program, should consider using a second form of contraception.  

Let me repeat: 

Anyone who sleeping with a member of the opposite sex and is undergoing a major weight loss program, should consider using a second form of contraception.  

A MAJOR MILESTONE -- NAILED IT!

I'm writing after a very productive weekend. I went camping at my friend's off-grid cottage on the lake. This is one of the environments that I feel may contribute to some of my struggles with weight loss as this is the kind of place where regardless of how great I do in the week--a couple hours around the fire can throw it all out the window.

This time, I've got too much skin in the game (literally). I went prepared. My significant other, bless her, seems to be operating at a slower pace these days. Could be her attempt at cutting back doesn't give her as much energy. She doesn't have the secret weapon that I do--whatever is in those Ideal Protein foods. Because, I'm suddenly on fire. If I get any more energy, I'm going to worry people think I'm manic.

All about the prep

I rushed out of work at lunch on Friday and went and weighed in. I was down 4. I don't know why but I felt down. I hear such stories of these huge first weeks that are then followed with moderate losses and I wanted to be one. But, I was happy with what I got and I didn't throw a fit.

Then, I went to the grocery store and took advantage of some nice pink stickers (in Nova Scotia half priced items about ready to expire are marked by a pink triangle--I try not to build any bridges between the whole gay pink triangle thing). I loaded up on chicken breast and pork tenderloin and fresh veggies (3 turnip for $1.49--not bad) and planned meals around what's on sale. After all, I'm kind of on a budget now that I'm paying for these IP foods.

I had hoped P would have it all done by the time I left work. She managed to get the chicken done. So I set to weighing, chopping, and bagging meals for the three of us and packed it all with clear labels about who could have what. I am not normally that controlling but basically, they could eat what I eat (minus the IP) and for the rest, they were on their own.

I then packed a cooler with IP foods, weight scales, measuring cups and spoons and we were on the road.

It was a challenge only cooking on a coleman stove with limited fresh water--but it worked. Cereal in the morning, shake (with 2 oz pork and 2 cups of cucumber) at lunch one day, chicken patties (awesome, by the way) the next with 2 cups cucumber,  turnip and reheated stirfry chicken breast for dinner the first night. I drank lots of water. I did a 2 hour hike and a lake bath/swim so I snuck in my IP bar as a refuel necessity mid-hike. And, each night I kept my salt and vinegar chips for when the snacks came out. They were very satisfying and filling -- thank goodness. If I still felt snack-y, I ate some lettuce that I had cut and bagged in advance. For the most part, given the amount of exercise and environment, I wasn't too hungry. If I felt hungry, I'd check in with some water and then wait and then see. We drank herbal tea.

Change the routine

I guess the big thing was that we didn't have our usual beer. It's not much to give up really. But, I'm thankful for friends and partners who are supportive and try to be as diet-friendly as possible while I figure this all out. Overall, a great weekend. I slept better and enjoyed mornings better, even had time to read Gone Girl--worth it. I might be onto something here. :)

Oh, and yes, by the way, the water was freezing! But, if it comes between me and my hygiene, I'm afraid even a thin coat of ice isn't enough to keep me out.

IDEAL PROTEIN PROTOCOL - THE DIET

I hope I don't get in trouble for sharing this, but I think it is beneficial for those who are considering the program to see what it is all about. Sure, there may be some of you who would like to try it on your own. To those people, I say good luck. The program, videos, and most importantly, food and coaching is what makes the program a success. I'd hardly think that one would have much success following the regimen alone.

This is also helpful for others like me, who received older sheets upon starting Ideal Protein and who have not seen these new edits to the program.

So, here's the scoop on Phase 1.

All of this information was accessed at http://www.idealprotein.com on October 15, 2014. All information below is written and provided by Ideal Protein.

Phase 1

To be followed until 100% of your weight loss goal is achieved. 

IMPORTANT: Only the items indicated on this sheet are permitted. Serving size must be respected: eat no more/no less than indicated.

Breakfast

1 Ideal Protein Food

Optional:
Coffee/tea with 30 ml (1 oz.) of regular milk.
Sweetener permitted (in limited quantity)*
*Some sweeteners contain hidden sugar and may hinder your weight loss.

SUPPLEMENTS
1 Natura Multi-Vita
1 Natura Potassium

Lunch

1 Ideal Protein food and 2 cups of select vegetables (see veggie list below)
Optional:
Unlimited raw vegetables/lettuce

Dinner

225 g (8 oz.) of 1 dinner protein and 2 cups of select vegetables
Optional:
Unlimited raw vegetables/lettuce

SUPPLEMENTS
2 Natura Cal-Mag
1 Natura Multi-Vita
2 Omega-3 Plus
1 Ideal Protein food

Snack

1 Ideal Protein food

SUPPLEMENTS
2 Natura Cal-Mag

Every Day Requirements

• Drink a minimum of 2 L (64 oz.) of water
• 2 teaspoons of olive oil 
• or grape seed extract oil
• ¼ teaspoon of Ideal Salt
• Natura Anti-Oxy (2 capsules daily) and Natura Enzymes (1-2 at mealtimes) are strongly recommended in all phases.

DINNER PROTEIN – No frying or breading permitted / Weigh before cooking.

Fish: Anchovy, bass, catfish, cod, flounder, grouper, haddock, hake, halibut, mahi-mahi, monkfish, perch, pike, red snapper, redfish, sea bass, shark, smelt, sole, swordfish, tilapia, tuna (red tuna once per week), trout, turbot, walleye, whiting, salmon (wild salmon once per week).

Seafood: Clams, crab, crawfish, lobster, mussels, oysters, scallops, scampi, shrimp, squid.

Beef: Flank steak, ground beef (extra-lean), lean roast, round, rump steak, sirloin, tenderloin, tournedos.

Poultry: Chicken (skinless), 6 eggs (2-4 whole, remainder must be egg whites), fowl, quail, turkey, wild birds.

Pork: Lean ham, pork tenderloin.

Veal: Breast, cutlet, inside round scaloppini, rib, shank, shoulder, tenderloin.

Other: Bison, deer, elk, frog legs, kidney, lamb loin, liver, moose, ostrich, rabbit, plain tofu.

UNLIMITED RAW VEGETABLES/LETTUCE

Arugula, Bibb lettuce, Boston lettuce, celery, chicory lettuce, cucumber, endives, escarole lettuce, frisée lettuce, green and red leaf lettuce, iceberg lettuce, mushroom, radicchio, radish, romaine lettuce, spinach and watercress lettuce.

SELECT VEGETABLES – 2 cups per meal – Weigh before cooking

Alfalfa, asparagus, bamboo shoots, bean sprouts, bell peppers, broccoli, cabbage (all), cauliflower, celeriac, celery, chayote, chicory, collards, cucumbers, dill pickles, fennel, Gai Lan (Chinese broccoli), green onions, jicama, kale, kohlrabi, mushrooms, okra, onions (raw only), hot peppers, radish, rhubarb, sauerkraut, spinach, Swiss chard, turnip, zucchini/yellow summer squash.

OCCASIONAL VEGETABLES – Maximum 4 cups per week – Weigh before cooking

Beans (green and wax), Brussels sprouts, eggplant, heart of palm, rutabaga, snow peas, tomatillo, tomatoes.

SEASONINGS

Apple cider vinegar, fine herbs, fresh herbs (basil, bay leaves, cilantro, chervil, chives, dill, marjoram, mint, oregano, parsley, rosemary, sage, savory, tarragon, thyme), garlic, ginger, lemon, lemongrass, hot mustard, hot sauce, soy sauce, sorrel, spices (MSG free/no carbohydrates), tamari sauce (1 tablespoon), white vinegar.

RESTRICTED IP FOODS – You may choose only 1 restricted Ideal Protein food per day.

You can find additional meal ideas (with or without Ideal Protein foods) in the My Ideal Recipes book by Chef Verati, as well as on Facebook and my.idealprotein.com (requires program membership).

AND THEN IT BEGAN

And, just like that...with one video and one day of refining carbs and carefully paying attention, it happened. I registered last night for a mild amount of ketones which means, ketosis has begun. And, I can already feel it. If anyone else is going through this, please just trust the process and wait for it.

This morning I had a bowl of oatmeal and then headed out to a conference with my purse packed full of the day's food. I kept busy until 12 and then back to work to make my chicken soup. I decided that 2 oz of protein with my lunch is necessary when working with the low carb options so I had some stir fried chicken left over from last night. Then, I ate my 3 cup romaine and apple cider vinegar salad with 1 tsp oil. This afternoon I'll have a shake and my veggies for a snack.

I have a feeling that there will be a lot of this in my future!

My afternoons were the hardest but I refined to add the salad and to reduce carbs and I already feel better. I feel much more full and more energy all around. I can tell that the ketosis process is changing things for me. It just means I have to have less carbs than the other people seem to. That's okay by me if it means I have this energy and I can enjoy the food I do eat. My salad felt like a luxurious treat to have for lunch.

I did think of a unique way to have a quick meal last night. I weighed out chicken breast into 6 oz (I had 2 oz of protein for lunch) and cut into strips. Then I stir fried them in a little bit of grapeseed oil (1 tsp) and tossed them in Franks RedHot sauce. It was my version of wings. I then chopped 2 cups of veggies (celery, broccoli, and cauliflower) as crudites and dipped them in 1 teaspoon of organic low calorie fat and carb free ranch dip.

It was filling and felt like an easy and quick meal that I might have in a pub somewhere.

Daily Videos

Today's video was about willpower. I found it really interesting and true for myself. The idea that this diet works because it reduces the number of decisions you have to make in the day. The rules are easy and if you just follow the guide, you don't have to decide much. Then, there are things you can do to make it easier, chop veggies in advance, write down net carbs, weigh and measure. 

My partner loves to tweak things to her satisfaction--it seems like she wants a loophole or a cheat. She likes to be smarter than the rules, or to take the rules and apply them for her own benefit. She is smart and sometimes too smart for her own good. This creates huge anxiety for me. I need things to be simple because I know that if I start granting myself freedom of choice, I end up taking liberties to pick and choose and within a blink it all goes out the window. I like the rules. I hope that this time the rules help me be successful for a long time. As the video said:

If you go all in, and put your diet on autopilot, you face fewer decisions...your willpower will last longer

Journalling

The video also talked about food journalling. I also know food journalling is the best thing I can do. If I didn't have the food journal, I wouldn't have had the idea of where I went wrong and I might not achieve any ketosis or weight loss this week. I am hoping I will really commit to this practice and hopefully use it to help me plan the day in advance to account for any needed accommodations due to schedule or social events. 

Heres a link to a Kaiser Permaenente Research Project on food journalling and diet success. 

IDEAL PROTEIN: NET CARBS AND I'M ALREADY DOING IT WRONG

So, I'm not going to lie. The last few days haven't been easy. I've been hungry. I've been headachy. I have not felt like I have been going into Ketosis.

Yesterday, I went to the drug store and got some Ketostix. I am not registering any ketones at all. I have been following Ideal Protein to the t, so it was frustrating. The ketosis phase of the diet means that you start to feel better, use your stored fat instead of consumed carbs for energy, which makes you feel more energetic and less like crap.

So, the process is to pee on the stick and line up the colour with the bottle. Piedad did this as well, and on her own diet of costco protein shakes and protein bars and veggies and a bit more fat, she registered moderately ketonic. I registered as none. Frustrating! I tried again first thing this morning, thinking that my 3.5l of water yesterday would have diluted me, and still nothing.

Nothing like giving yourself a urine test! 

I did find a great article here about not worrying about ketostix.

I watched my morning video from Ideal Protein and it was excellent help. I already thought I might have messed up with the carbs but the video on net carbs and restricted foods made me think. I already know that I am insulin resistant so it is highly likely that I should probably have less than the 40 the diet seems to keep you in. What I did not realize was that the diet doesn't even make 40 an easy number to attain.

I went to Calorie King to lookup all of the vegetables that I've been eating and made note of the net carbs (carbs-dietary fibre=net carbs, Dr. Atkins had already gotten me that far). I was shocked and horrified to find out that I had eaten more than 40, even more than 45 net carbs everday so far. That's 3 days wasted. And, means that I have to give my IP foods a lot more thought to get myself down to the 30 net carbs that I'm targeting with hopes that this will be enough for my body to enter ketosis.

Since I have already gone through the trouble, here's some of my net carbs calculations. You may find these surprising. I'm sure going to miss those chocolate caramel bars. Last night we went to thanksgiving dinner at a friends and I had a bit more turkey than my 8 oz and 1 cup of cooked cabbage and 1 cup of cooked turnip. Later, when the desserts came out I had my protein bar. It didn't feel like I was deprived at all. As a matter of fact, I probably enjoyed that turkey more than any other I've ever had.

Ideal Protein Foods

Oatmeal: 7 

Cereal: 12

Pasta (tomato and basil rotini): 6

Chocolate Caramel bar: 15

Creamy Chicken Soup: 1

Chocolate Shake: 2 

Vegetables

All veggies are measured in 1 cup

Broccoli: 3.5   Cooked Broccoli: 6.1 

Cucumber: 2

Romaine lettuce: .5 

Iceberg lettuce: .9

Kohlrabi: 3.3    Cooked Kohlrabi: 9.2

Red Pepper: 3.9   Cooked Red Pepper: 4.4

Orange & Yellow Pepper: 4.9

Cauliflower: 3   Cooked Cauliflower: 1.8

Turnip: 6.1   Boiled Turnip: 4.8

Green Pepper: 2.7 

Celery: 1.9

Cabbage: 3.2   Boiled Cabbage: 3.3

Milk

Skim Milk (1 oz) : 1.5 depending on brand

TOWARDS KETOSIS

I'm a few days into the Ideal Protein program. I thought I'd share some of my reflections and meal ideas. I am still finding it a bit strange that there are limited sites to learn more from other people's experiences but I did find that 3 Fat Chicks on a Diet has a forum dedicated to Ideal Protein.

The social aspect 

One of the hardest things I ever deal with when trying a lifestyle that is any bit restricted is the social pressure, feedback, concern, and opinions of others. I find that people can be so well meaning-- everyone knows something about dieting healthy--but damaging to morale at the same time. It is Thanksgiving weekend and I chose not to have a turkey dinner here. I also forfeited an invite to check out a new restaurant opening that I would have loved to go to. My friends feel that life should be enjoyed and a diet shouldn't take this away. I get that, I really do. My reply is that I would enjoy life so much more if I felt good, fit in clothes, fit in sports equipment, and had energy. I try to never take a day for granted as it is, but this is something I want more than missing out on a restaurant or trying a new shooter.

Then, I hear people saying things like

Oh you don't need to spend that much money to lose weight.

Have you researched this on PubMed?

The three people who have done this that I know gained it all back. 

You shouldn't lose weight fast like that. You should only do 2 lbs a week.

It's just a fad diet, you know those never work.

And, my favourites...

Just eat organic and follow the food guide. 

You should try green tea. 

Just cut out soda and sugar and you'll lose weight

I found Weight Watchers really helpful

Such well meaning souls, but so not supportive. I do have to say, Weight Watchers and I have dated so many times...I am not sure I can ever take them back again. I find the meetings repetitive and boring and I don't find that there is enough structure to keep one on track. I get that it works for some. I just have never even gotten to the point of even getting an effing keychain. I think that's what makes me bitter-I want the damn keychain already!

I feel like sending a letter to all my friends, or posting a melodramatic facebook status and saying, "okay people, here's what I need." I don't think it will go over well. So, I'm trying to get at them one person at a time. As it comes up. It will come up every time I have to decline something, shake a package of the ever-stigmatic processed and microwaved foods (things that until this, I had eliminated completely for years).
 
Tonight, we are going to a thanksgiving dinner and I'll have my 8oz of turkey with skin removed and two cups of turnip and cabbage. I will enjoy the social aspect and sip water. I'll also crack into an extra IP packet to get me through the wait and all should be okay. It's easy now because this is all new and I'm committed.

But, does anyone else notice how much of our social lives are steeped in food and alcohol?

Then, there's the other side. When someone says "but you are not that fat" I could kiss then and slap them at the same time. My reply is now "well, actually I am. I am 55% fat...more than half fat. And, my BMI is 46--that's a long way above morbidly obese." Of course, like many things with stigma attached--I can say that, they can't. It's a no-win situation. If someone else called me morbidly obese, it would hurt. But, I get mad when they say I am not fat enough for an extreme diet.

I think that I will be happy once my mental energy and physical fatigue lift and I'll be able to get out on the trails again. This will also give me a chance to invite friends out on a hike and get out of the routine of going for coffee, lunch, brunch, drinks...and all that other good stuff. That's what got me into this mess in the first place.

What I've been eating...

One of the things that I like about the program is that the food is provided. I have been doing an extra IP packet this week as I learn to curb the hunger. It helps. I have had some headache which seem to be from the overall shock as I've not been big about sugar or caffeine for some time. It could be pure fruit withdrawal! I've been taking 2 ibuprofin when required and pounding back water at between 2.5-3.5 litres a day. I have the occasional herbal tea or coffee with the allowed skim and sweetener. Last night, I treated myself to a soda water.

I bought the IP oatmeal, cereal, rotini, chicken soup, shakes and carmel bars. I can't say that they taste bad because they don't.

I enjoy the oatmeal, shakes, rotini and bars the most and I haven't had chance to get too creative yet. I usually just toss the rotini with some apple cider vinegar and red pepper and broccoli. I add a tsp of oil and salt and vinegar. I have the occasional romaine lettuce salad with oil and vinegar, or just vinegar if I have used the alotted 2 tsp of oil in my meal. The oil seems to help with the feeling of fullness.

I tested my urine with Ketostix and don't appear to be in ketosis quite yet. This could also be that I'm diluting my ketones with too much water but I do have the feeling that I'm not adjusted yet as I still have the headaches and lack of mental clarity. Time will tell. I'm going to try again in the morning.

If anyone is wondering, constipation was a warning but hasn't been an issue at all. That seems to be going right. And, I pee so often I don't have to worry about a "sedentary" desk job anymore. 

IDEAL PROTEIN

Today, I have decided to start a new routine and I am committing to blogging regularly about it.  I have decided to use this blog to share something that I haven't been able to find elsewhere.

Me in August 2014

When researching Ideal Protein, I could not find anything that wasn't the program marketing. I intend to share my experience and fees with anyone who is curious and I promise to take a full open approach to my experience. I am not being sponsored by anyone (besides my mom and sister who are helping me with the cost) and I am paying full price for my program.  
When I started, I couldn't find the fees anywhere. That annoys me. However, when I called the clinic, they gave me the fees easily without any marketing and I appreciated that.  

I'm going towards the understanding that drastic problems need drastic solutions. 
I am now almost 270 pounds. I'm only 5'4" I am active, but it is harder every day. I have a family with heart health issues, diabetes, and blood pressure issues. I don't want this for me. I have been doing Weight Watchers. I have tried many things. The only thing that worked so far was Atkins but I can't sustain eating bacon and high fat foods and doing all the prep on my own--it's not structured enough and I slip up. When I slip, I slide. I tried fast metabolism and it was the same. I couldn't sustain consistently. I'm so sick of plus size stores as well. I can't even go into that here.  
I think a rigid program is what I need to give it an honest go. I can't take the guess work. I need something to follow that is simple and strict. I can't take liberties.  
I have the amazing ability to eat healthy, exercise and still grow  and grow and grow.  

Me in Summer 2005

All doctors have said the same, PCOS and insulin resistance is corrected by weight loss. Which will also help my menstrual periods.  If I could lose 30-40 pounds I can also go back to my favourite activities (ball hockey) and not worry so much about the pressure on my joints. Or, the pain. Or the fact that my belly fat bounces and my yoga pants and capris slide down my ass.  
I'm in a bit of a pickle here. So, I joined something that is supposedly guaranteed to hit me hard in the wallet, ensure ketosis, take the meal prep/constant attention away and ensure large weight loss in the least amount of time. Sustaining it, I will work on and the program does account for long term maintenance.

I know that maintenance will really require much more work and commitment than the actual weight loss. I have had friends who have done this and lost successfully. I have heard that everyone gains it back and this scares me. But, not losing it scares me more.  
 I have some theories about this:

• If I could just see some success, I would be more committed and energetic to do more for maintenance. 
• If I could see some success, I would be able to enjoy activity better and thus, be better equipped to keep the weight off. 
• If I could see some success, I would be more apt to feel better and the mind is the most important place for healthy living, weight loss, and general well being. 

The cost

I'm seeing a pharmacist for the supplies. It isn't cheap.
The up front investment is as follows:

1. $75 (half off) initial consult and weekly follow up meeting fee 
2. $96 vitamins (which I may source elsewhere when I get going)  
3. $196 for food for two weeks so I could have variety

 
So basically, I'm about $400 in already. However, the buying two weeks of food was my idea because I wanted variety in my first week.  Going forward, 
each week I will pay another $96.60 (taxes in) for food and that will cover most of my breakfast and lunch and snack for the day. I am still responsible for my oils, four cups of veggies and 8 oz of protein daily. 
I am not going to lie. It is steep for me. My mom and sister are helping me with $100 each. And, I estimate that I will save enough in skipping the grab and go foods and booze that it will help ease the financial burden.  
I will give it a year.


The beginning

So far, this morning I tried the cereal and had my coffee as per usual. The cereal wasn't the best thing I ever tasted but I could do it. And, it held me over. I'm pounding water now and it is 11:13 am and I'm starting to get a bit hungry. It's soon time for my creamy chicken soup and two cups of red peppers. 
We had a cake party at 10 for a colleague and I brought along a snack bar in case. I didn't need to eat it as I wasn't hungry and I'm thinking I will push through until lunch with no issues.  I am ... Going against a lot of my own well and good advice. Going against what I know to be true about dieting and long term weight-loss.

My BMI is 46. My body fat is 55% (if you can trust a scale to tell you this), Visceral fat is 10% (not bad, actually) and lean mass is 20%.  My waist is 46" and my chest is 51".  My energy is low and I sleep too much.  My blood pressure has become a concern.  I have PCOS and irregular periods, but when they come they are heavy and painful and just awful. BCP raise my blood pressure. An IUD gave me a painful month before I expelled it. I have been prescribed Metformin for weight loss--due to insulin resistance. It didn't work and I'm not a person who loves the idea of being on 3 pills a day when I'm 33 years old.  I have always ate 90% healthy (the booze and bread can be the 10% bad, or a bag of chips on a road trip or shared around the campfire). This is why I believe that for my size, I still have muscle tone, and my supposed visceral fat is only 10%. People are always surprised by my body size when they spend time and actually see what I eat and my level of activity. I'm so sick of the idea that it is my lifestyle that needs adjustment. I have always followed a healthy lifestyle as much or if not more than my slimmer friends.

So, here we are at drastic change that is supposed to fix my body and help my regular lifestyle contribute to a healthy life.  I know I can't do weight loss and drink and this scares me. I am no alcoholic but the bigger I get, the more alcohol eases my social anxiety. I don't like to go out any more being this large.  My only concern is the medical side effects of Ketosis. So, I will have my creatine monitored by my doctor.